I feel so much better now

At the age of twelve years old I was very frustrated with everything that was going on around me and it got me into some trouble, so I was moved from my mom’s house to a place that was not quite jail, but the only reason it wasn’t jail was because of my age. I was sent there because I was terrible and constantly getting in trouble. I dropped out of school and kind of liked making every-ones lives hard. For most of my childhood I was sent from home to hospital and back again after time.

One of the biggest things I regret to this day is one time when I was in a hospital. I got into an argument with a guard and all it did was send me to a place that was more mean and strict. For me that was hard and all it did was make me more and more violent.

When I was about 18 I believe, I was trying to get in to a place that I heard about called MORC. I did not really know exactly what I was getting myself into but I knew I wanted to try something new. The first placement was cool I liked it there but it was a bit of a shock to me. I had a really hard time adjusting with the new lifestyle of gentle teaching, so I ended up continuing on my way from hospital to home for a while.

As a moved back to the homes from the hospitals I became more and more thankful that everyone that worked for me and around me gave me so many second chances and z ouch love, even though I was not the nicest person to be around. Everyone really showed me through time that they were not just there for me but they were also there for themselves, and that means so much to me. For the reason that I know that they could leave me behind and forget about me but that never happened.

It is kind of strange for me to say that gentle teaching has made care about even those people that I dislike. It might not seem like it but as soon as they are gone I realize that they are not so bad. Gentle teaching for me had brought me from what I would say was total anger to a more calm and caring person that constantly thinks about people’s feelings. I know that sometimes I still get a little angry at times but in the end I always find myself apologizing to everyone and telling them sorry. Gentle teaching to me is great and I don’t know what I would do without the people who are around me that are caring towards me and who show me they care. If it were not showing me respect, then I might still be bouncing from hospital to hospital. Instead I find myself loving on others and the last thing I want to say is thank you all for being there with me through everything I really do appreciate it!

Thank you, thank you, thank you love Jonathan.